An unusual state of mind

Or should that be an unusual state of mine?

I all but closed my main blog on 360. I felt I needed to focus my attention and time on Jon. Also, I found it quite difficult to blog to readers about anything when the thing in the forefront of my mind still is his condition and how we're coping.

I still cry when I talk about it.

...but I digress.

Anyway, I got a few unhappy people after I removed all but 13 (including my alternate) from my friends list and locked my blog and quickies to friends only. I did that so that when Jon is comfortable talking about what is wrong (if ever) I will have that blog for moral support as it were.


I know there will be a parallel drawn for many but to me it's not the same. Either way that is the way it is pretty much. Mine is a choice for a different reason: currently that diagnosis affects literally everything I think about. I am a plan for the future kinda gal. I'm finding myself rethinking EVERYTHING.

I hope this too passes with time.

I hope the driving desire to go to ground like a small wounded animal also passes with time.

I hope one day the tears pass.

I hope one day the tears cease because I've come to grips with this - not because there are literally no more tears left to shed.

as the Drama Llama rears it's ugly head

Probably should've called this As The Stomach Turns but that's already taken.

Yahoo. Friggin Yahoo. What a bunch of drama queens reside within your cyberwalls.

In the last couple of weeks I have been branded a racist, called a stupid ugly american (purposely non capitalized), villified on a private blog, ugly emails (untrue ones at that) sent to people on my friends list ... you know the drill - a flame war. Now it would appear one of the reigning 360 icons has decided he might wnt to blow that particular popcicle stand over some rumoured news of a Y!360 closure.

Hey if it closes it closes. There a million other places out there. Will things be missed? yes. Will friends stay in touch? probably not. Will the groupings be recreated somewhere else? maybe but doubtful because the one tiny thing that 360 has going for it is a sense of community. Yahoo sucks so bad that there's no way I'd stay if it weren't for that.

However, yahoo also has a time honored tradition of breaking the things that were working all along (witness clubs/groups and yahoo photos/flickr).

C'est la vie Adios Yahoo - you screwed the pooch again.