Wednesday, October 31, 2007

In honor of a love affair


Most reasonably sane people can say they've fallen in love with a writers words and the images they paint. Fewer reasonably sane people can say they've fallen in love with a writer whose words and images evoke the less than pleasant. Fewer still have the near obessive love of Poe that some of us have.

The first place I wanted to see when I got to the East Coast was Poe's grave. The second place was Poe house.

While I loved the way the words by Dickens sounded it was the images of Poe that I've always loved best.

In honor of one of my best loves:

The Raven
--by Edgar Allan Poe - first published 1845


Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered weak and weary,
Over many a quaint and curious volume of forgotten lore,
While I nodded, nearly napping, suddenly there came a tapping,
As of some one gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door.
`'Tis some visitor,' I muttered, `tapping at my chamber door -
Only this, and nothing more.'

Ah, distinctly I remember it was in the bleak December,
And each separate dying ember wrought its ghost upon the floor.
Eagerly I wished the morrow; - vainly I had sought to borrow
From my books surcease of sorrow - sorrow for the lost Lenore -
For the rare and radiant maiden whom the angels named Lenore -
Nameless here for evermore.

And the silken sad uncertain rustling of each purple curtain
Thrilled me - filled me with fantastic terrors never felt before;
So that now, to still the beating of my heart, I stood repeating
`'Tis some visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door -
Some late visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door; -
This it is, and nothing more,'

Presently my soul grew stronger; hesitating then no longer,
`Sir,' said I, `or Madam, truly your forgiveness I implore;
But the fact is I was napping, and so gently you came rapping,
And so faintly you came tapping, tapping at my chamber door,
That I scarce was sure I heard you' - here I opened wide the door; -
Darkness there, and nothing more.

Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there wondering, fearing,
Doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before
But the silence was unbroken, and the darkness gave no token,
And the only word there spoken was the whispered word, `Lenore!'
This I whispered, and an echo murmured back the word, `Lenore!'
Merely this and nothing more.

Back into the chamber turning, all my soul within me burning,
Soon again I heard a tapping somewhat louder than before.
`Surely,' said I, `surely that is something at my window lattice;
Let me see then, what thereat is, and this mystery explore -
Let my heart be still a moment and this mystery explore; -
'Tis the wind and nothing more!'

Open here I flung the shutter, when, with many a flirt and flutter,
In there stepped a stately raven of the saintly days of yore.
Not the least obeisance made he; not a minute stopped or stayed he;
But, with mien of lord or lady, perched above my chamber door -
Perched upon a bust of Pallas just above my chamber door -
Perched, and sat, and nothing more.

Then this ebony bird beguiling my sad fancy into smiling,
By the grave and stern decorum of the countenance it wore,
`Though thy crest be shorn and shaven, thou,' I said, `art sure no craven.
Ghastly grim and ancient raven wandering from the nightly shore -
Tell me what thy lordly name is on the Night's Plutonian shore!'
Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.'

Much I marvelled this ungainly fowl to hear discourse so plainly,
Though its answer little meaning - little relevancy bore;
For we cannot help agreeing that no living human being
Ever yet was blessed with seeing bird above his chamber door -
Bird or beast above the sculptured bust above his chamber door,
With such name as `Nevermore.'

But the raven, sitting lonely on the placid bust, spoke only,
That one word, as if his soul in that one word he did outpour.
Nothing further then he uttered - not a feather then he fluttered -
Till I scarcely more than muttered `Other friends have flown before -
On the morrow he will leave me, as my hopes have flown before.'
Then the bird said, `Nevermore.'

Startled at the stillness broken by reply so aptly spoken,
`Doubtless,' said I, `what it utters is its only stock and store,
Caught from some unhappy master whom unmerciful disaster
Followed fast and followed faster till his songs one burden bore -
Till the dirges of his hope that melancholy burden bore
Of "Never-nevermore."'

But the raven still beguiling all my sad soul into smiling,
Straight I wheeled a cushioned seat in front of bird and bust and door;
Then, upon the velvet sinking, I betook myself to linking
Fancy unto fancy, thinking what this ominous bird of yore -
What this grim, ungainly, gaunt, and ominous bird of yore
Meant in croaking `Nevermore.'

This I sat engaged in guessing, but no syllable expressing
To the fowl whose fiery eyes now burned into my bosom's core;
This and more I sat divining, with my head at ease reclining
On the cushion's velvet lining that the lamp-light gloated o'er,
But whose velvet violet lining with the lamp-light gloating o'er,
She shall press, ah, nevermore!

Then, methought, the air grew denser, perfumed from an unseen censer
Swung by Seraphim whose foot-falls tinkled on the tufted floor.
`Wretch,' I cried, `thy God hath lent thee - by these angels he has sent thee
Respite - respite and nepenthe from thy memories of Lenore!
Quaff, oh quaff this kind nepenthe, and forget this lost Lenore!'
Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.'

`Prophet!' said I, `thing of evil! - prophet still, if bird or devil! -
Whether tempter sent, or whether tempest tossed thee here ashore,
Desolate yet all undaunted, on this desert land enchanted -
On this home by horror haunted - tell me truly, I implore -
Is there - is there balm in Gilead? - tell me - tell me, I implore!'
Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.'

`Prophet!' said I, `thing of evil! - prophet still, if bird or devil!
By that Heaven that bends above us - by that God we both adore -
Tell this soul with sorrow laden if, within the distant Aidenn,
It shall clasp a sainted maiden whom the angels named Lenore -
Clasp a rare and radiant maiden, whom the angels named Lenore?'
Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.'

`Be that word our sign of parting, bird or fiend!' I shrieked upstarting -
`Get thee back into the tempest and the Night's Plutonian shore!
Leave no black plume as a token of that lie thy soul hath spoken!
Leave my loneliness unbroken! - quit the bust above my door!
Take thy beak from out my heart, and take thy form from off my door!'
Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.'

And the raven, never flitting, still is sitting, still is sitting
On the pallid bust of Pallas just above my chamber door;
And his eyes have all the seeming of a demon's that is dreaming,
And the lamp-light o'er him streaming throws his shadow on the floor;
And my soul from out that shadow that lies floating on the floor
Shall be lifted - nevermore!

The photo above was taken across the street from The Wharf Rat last spring. In was in this area (Fells Point) that Poe (supposedly) spent his last few coherent hours.

The Maryland Renaissance Festival wrapup


Yes I know I should have done this two weeks ago but things happen dontcha know.

People ask why I go every weekend (that I'm able) every year. The simplest way to explain that is each year is different. My first year we only went twice and we were still almost touristas. The 2nd year and 3rd year was spent nearly exclusively with family. Year 4 brought time with new friends and year 5 brought the wenches guild and becoming aquainted with those lovely ladies. That opened up an entire arena of new friends - friends I leaned on this year who knew something was very very wrong but either wouldn't press or respected my privacy and didn't ask.

This year brought a renewal of friendships to the lovely lads of Cercamon (less Jean Simone Blanchet who opted out of the group to raise a family) and the forging of friendships with (and a greater appreciation of) other groups as well as the discovery of new friends; we saw new acts and old acts and mourned a favored vendor who had passed after season last year.

This year also brought a lot of personal and family issues so we missed many days. We not only missed many days we were missed on many days. That reminded me of the strength of the friendships that I'd maybe not taken for granted but I hadn't fully appreciated.

Each year I remain in awe of the magic of a place that is nothing more than dirt paths and buildings. Each year I am taken away by this lovely group fantasy we participate in.

May next year be equally beautiful.

For now - PICTURES !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

My muse has good taste


Yes Harold, for as picky as he is, shares my love of music and often my taste in music.


I can always tell when Harold's listening because I seem to hear even the most familiar in a new way or an old, near forgotten memory is dredged up.


Currently I'm doing a 70's overload (no disco thankyouverymuch) and am taken back to the days of Friday night football games and Friday night dances and just for a moment I remember the feel and freedom again of just being 'in' the music ... it's intoxicating. Remembering how your body felt moving to Frankenstein or Feels Like The First Time or The Stroke or alternately swaying in someone's arms to Stairway to Heaven or Wonderful Tonite. You didn't need any outside substances because the music itself was so very intoxicating. Sometimes the adrenaline rush would near carry til the next day.


Isn't it sad as we're older and can appreciate it more, the opportunities are less?

The Daily Zen for October 30, 2007


Kuei-shan asked Yun-yen,

“What is the seat of enlightenment?”

Yun-yen said,

“Freedom from artificiality.”




Another one that I especially like - freedom from artificiality. It doesn't say to abandon the artificial but rather to 'free' yourself from it.


Lately I've found I'm surrounding myself more and more with the 'real life' community as opposed to the 'virtual community'. It's not that I don't love my online friends, but an online (((hug))) just can't compare to the real thing. We as human beings need the touch of others. I've also found I've quite narrowed my group of online friends to the ones I know very well - those I know (or hope I know) to be more real - less artificial.


I've abandoned the artificial IRL friends as well.

Monday, October 29, 2007

The Daily Zen for October 29, 2007


Recognize as the basis the mind

That does not pursue things.

In the midst of your daily activities,

As you attend to things and

Respond to things,

Always rely on this mind that

Does not pursue things.

As soon as your mind starts to pursueThings, i

mmediately gather it back in.

Stay with this for a long time, and you

Will gradually become ripe.



I like this one. I've always been the biggest opponent and naysayer against a utopian environment as sadly we are not a self-actualized species and, as such, identify with possessions - with THINGS. It's as much of who we are as homosapiens as our opposable thumbs. Even the smallest child or the most developmentally disabled person can and often does identify their surroundings and theirself with objects. Later, a personal style sometimes develops and yes that involves more objects - more things.


That is not to say we can't rein it in when we start focusing on things -- start 'pursuing' things if you will.


Remember you own things; do not let them own you !

A little murder, a little mayhem


...a little mystery?

Last night Jon and I went to Whispers for a dinner/murder mystery. It's not quite the 'last night I went to Manderly again' but then again I'm not a writer.


heh


I will admit it was wonderful to be out of the house and recapture some of the romance that has defined our relationship since its inception. We talked, we laughed, we discussed some subjects that were a bit overdue.


As for the dinner theatre: the food was ok, the plot was a bit strange, the characters were wonderful. Seriously it was like Old Home Week with "oh there's Tina, there's Brian ... is that Cybele?" Of course Jon recognized her first as I cue in on voices and that's makes recognizing your favorite mime - sans white makeup - more than a bit difficult.


The whodunit is something I will possibly forget in a few days. The warm feelings from seeing friends and spending time with Jon will be something I"ll remember for a long time.


Yes we'll definitely be back.


Sunday, October 28, 2007

On The Menu - Sunday Brunch


We're doing this as a test drive for Christmas Brunch this year.

Robert called last week to tell me that he really couldn't afford to come up for Christmas and hey if we were sending gifts $$$$ would be greatly appreciated.

Fortunately we have that type of relationship that we can say "hey if you're sending presents send money instead" and I understand the practicality of the request.

Meanwhile, since it's 'adults only' on Christmas I thought brunch - a high scale CHAMPAGNE brunch and who better to make it than I? This is a scaled down version (test drove today to a rousing sucess) of the menu:

Eggs Chesapeake (eggs benedict with crab cakes instead of canadian bacon)
Fresh Fruit
Cheese (in this case 12 month aged cheddar imported from Ireland - quite mellow)
Poinsettas (champagne and cranberry juice) or Mimosas (champagne and orange juice)
Fresh bacon (for Mom who won't eat crab cakes - yes Julie I can do this for you as well ;) )

Isn't it nice when you can celebrate absolutely nothing but the joy of celebration itself?

As Grandma used to say "Celebrate EVERYTHING !"

Pour you a mimosa?